(my)HOWL for Allen Ginsberg I I saw the worst minds of my generation, a plague of madness, soul-starved in naked depravity dragging Negroes through the streets at midnight, this angry system begging for a fix, angels of Armageddon burning for the ancient prophesy disconnected from the starry dynamo in twisted machinery of eternal night, who with wealth beyond imagination watched impoverished humanity smolder from the echoed marbled darkness of gated seclusion hovering over once-city remnants, contemplating nil, who pared young brains through dense fences of Hell and padlocked doors, scarring blank slates forever starved for illumination, who bought out universities with cool venture capital fortunes in hallucinatory self-importance while graduating tragic scholars of staggering debt, who were purged from the cloud for live-streaming the obscenity of their hate through small shattered screens, who slashed away at long ragged snakes of tattered clothing, burning money on porous steel dreams, wasting caged lives to the Terror at the wall, who busted heads in public, and silenced dissent in anony- mous white vans from Portland to Chicago to New York, who ate junk food in Oval Offices or drank bleach in churches, death, or purgatoried their lungs in unmasked bars night after night, with thoughts, with prayers, with hollow promises, false claims, Diet Cokes and endless lies incomprehensible blind tweets shuddering loud, and light in the mind leaping towards polls in Mar a Lago & Fantasyland, illuminating the sub- conscious underworld of Times past, OxyContin realities in backwood bleak economies, drunken dawns in tented storefronts, joyriding limousines playing Let’s Make a Deal in the flickering American winter, roaring past lost lives and lost minds, who chained themselves to cardboard prophets for a four- year descent into Promised Land mirages, scattering blame among innocents, until the noise of collapse brought them down betrayed, butt-hurt and broken, railing at their own images reflected in the shattered mirrors of Now, who sank to knees of worship for the narrow-minded god of their own creation, sitting at the right hand of the false prophet profiteering and listening to devout crackpots speaking in forked tongues, who spewed continuously in 140 characters from toilet to table to desk to toilet to table to desk to toilet to bed and toilet again, a tragic gaggle of pundit commentators jumping through hoops, lowering their ever-lowering bar even lower, beneath dignity, beneath decency, beneath truth, accusing, blaming, insulting, mocking, threatening, alluding to false facts and fantasies, delivering crotch kicks and backstabs to victims, moralists and vets, with intellects exchanged for total loyalty, and pardons granted to bag men and butchers, the meat of the former-favored cast to the curb, who descended the Golden Escalator of Destiny to leave a trail of sixteen white elephants picture postcards of Quicken Loans Arena in Cleveland, envying the Korean rocket man, the Russian mob boss, the Turkish strongman, the Philippine enforcer, the Brazilian firestarter, the cruel Israeli landlord, and the Chinese president-for life, who wandered from dressing room to dressing room of the Beauty Pageants of America, wondering what pussy to grab next, leaving no trace of heart, who cut deals in golfcarts golfcarts golfcarts racketeering walrus mulligans in lonesome foursomes with fair- weather friends, who studied Mussolini von Mieses Ayn Rand prosperity theology and satanic pregnancies but preached to TikTok empty seats in Tulsa, who loned it down the path of the South Lawn, a vision of crumpled untied faded smeared with orange collar and small white palms, who doubled-down on anarchy futures and worshipped at the false altar of Big Data and talking telescopes laserfocused on private lives, who jumped into raw deals with the Chinaman on artless impulse while leaving his cards facedown for a cold winter Christmas shopping in smalltown America, who lounged fat and lonely in Mar a Lago with no music pets or laughter, and conversed with the One Jew Nazi about infestations of eternal White America while giving painful birth to his own Shithole Country, who disappeared prosecutors for getting too close to Russian associates, erasing paths to shadowy payments leaving nothing but the ash of evidence scattered in lobbies of the Ukraine, who reinvented weather along the Southern Coast and saved Alabama from Dorian’s mode of destruction using only a Sharpie marker, who burned clean coal despite the fact that it simply does not exist beyond the propagandic haze of Capitalism, who distributed 250 million dollars worth of Javelin Missiles after seeking a quid for his pro quo as the sirens of the whistleblowers wailed, and Zelinsky wailed, and the Democrat Congress also wailed, who broke down blue boxes in black neighborhoods in naked desperation before dismantled machinery and skeleton crews, who’s bit-part AstroTurf shrieked with delight for fifty bucks and a free t-shirt, fluffed by megaphones of praise and the intoxicant of proximate fame, who wept stale beer into national microphones and dragged girls into frat party bedrooms groping genitals and judicial robes, who fucked the Statue of Liberty in the ass while self- appointed saints testified with prideful ecstasy about god’s plan, who chanted “blood & soil” to the romantic glow of their Cost Plus tiki torches and partied like it was 1933, who bailed on rose gardens and public lands for cutting, mining, fracking, drilling, dredging, extracting, paving and laying pipe through sacred cemeteries and holy waterways freely to whomever came to pay, who word-farted endlessly trying to communicate but wound up lost behind a partition of TelePrompters til faux journalists came to lob softballs, underhand, who sold their souls to the siren songs of seduction - the hollow melody of loveless lust, the pathetic bombast of unearned power, and the unresolved dissonance of an unquenchable greed that makes nothing, gives nothing, and offers nothing but must have everything in return, who graduated from Libertine University with a speedo and a glass of black water, summoning The Fixer for future endorsements and scratching that unHoly Itch while making love offerings to the Saintly Pool Boy with a vision of ultimate cuck bathed in the fetid gyzym of hypocritical self-righteousness, who island pimped for heads of state and socialites, spilling semen on the red eyed trembling innocents, with book upon book of names and numbers dying with them by enforced suicide, who whored their night-school law degree in defense of darkside extra-curriculars, W.B., legal hero of the Secret Government, launderer, Bully of Columbia, and staunch defender of BCCI, — death penalties and absolute power in pursuit of the traditional moral order & executive privilege, & The Crusades, while earning the contempt of Congress for sympathetic editings & whitewashings, & heat-beaming paths for Lafayette Square photo-ops, & allies of his King, who faded away after his security clearance got lifted, then backed the Alabammy Judge who dates ‘em young before crapping out in Europe, abandoned by Mercer to hawk white gin blossom nationalism and fraudulent wall futures and begging pardon after stumbling off Guo’s yacht in Post Office handcuffs, who found clemency with their hands full of blood, littering Iraqi soil with pieces of anything that moved, before sealing the grey room full of spent casings and desecrated souvenirs, who longed for the diplomacy of war and mocked the global constraints on his sovereign, hawking pre-emptive strikes before testifying by proxy on the brief ride of a best-seller then slowly fading into oblivion, who ate Zimbabwe leopard and flashed the elephant’s severed tail, bottom-feeding hunters looting charities and always punching down, who wept in private at the lack of romance, and swatted away the grabbing hand that leaves them to walk in the rain without an umbrella, who sat uninvited at the G20 breathing in rarefied air while longing for daddy’s lap, and hawked dresses and black beans from high atop her princess loft, who coughed up sneering contempt at the enemy of the people, ever-spinning mouthpiece flamethrowing unapologetic never-lie explanations behind the desecrated podium, who sprayed his mercenary blackwater on foes both foreign and domestic while his sister prayerfully profited from turning American education into gibberish, who cooked up & sold his own mythology from the heart of the apple, eyes frozen with robotic denials, backchanneling royal quid pro quos with incarcerated cronies, who plunged themselves into meaningless analysis searching for covfefe, who tossed their bow tie off-camera to be recast as the peak of Broadcast Urinalism & pissed out Eternities of Hate from beneath white sheets for the next generation who cut off the opposition on a Texas freeway and brought mob rule to free and fair elections, lost, and were forced onto other platforms where they cried to each other and to their Q-Anon Jesus, who burned alive the hardwon stars ‘n’ bars of Pentagon uniforms in exchange for brand loyalty and armed American soldiers on armed American streets amid the squeal of ammonium nitrate delivery trucks & the sinister click of semi-automatic pitchforks, or committed lynchings as faith-drunk patriots from an Alternate Reality, who jumped into a Philadelphia press conference at Four Seasons Total Landscaping this actually happened then walked forgotten past the crematorium and the adult novelty shop in a ghostly industrial alley, not even one free dildo, who greased the wheels or ground them to a halt depending, gave their own twisted sperm to zombie corporate personhood, wallowed proudly in zero-sum politics, leaped on negroes, smirk-gloated unclean through the halls of justice, jackboot danced on the corpse of democracy, raised obstruction to an art form and subjected generations of the many to the whims of the few, skillful deaf to the sick, poor, voiceless and voteless in twisted allegiance to a party you were not invited to, who drilled down thru the deepstate conspiracy to the even deeper deepstate conspiracy to the even even deeper deeper deepstate conspiracy til finally falling flailing through the flaky crust of this our flattened earth, who with mere days to spare, leased 1.6 million acres of wildcountry for visions of wells, visions of jobs, and visions of irresponsible stewardship for all Eternity, who lost in Michigan, who lost in Wisconsin, who lost in Arizona, who lost in Pennsylvania, and who lost three times in Georgia, but still won in their own mind & brooded & tweeted from their Golf Course in Virginia as their father’s dark memory hungered only for winners, who fell to their knees on the Oval Office sofa, praying for victims of the Bowling Green massacre and illuminating alternative facts, who crashed Rudy’s party releasing the Kraken in vengeful wrath over Satan’s Dominion & subsequently presented impossible mountains of Venezuelan & Cuban evidence over 30,000 fraudulent votes from a food truck & a circus full of witless witnesses, who should retire to Mar-a-Lago and cultivate a life, to learn to laugh besides at somebody and at least get a fucking dog and maybe get dug by the blistering quicksilver jazz rage of Albert Ayler or at least Kenny G, who demanded martial law accusing the media & Democrats of stealing a free & fair election & were left with empty hands & sour grape cries for Civil War, who spilled childbrains upon the asphalt streets of Baghdad and subsequently presented themselves as exalted warriors, serving only cruelty in a madhouse massacre of fourteen innocents, contractors of slaughter building vectors of grief and mercenary impunity, and who were given instead the spiteful mercy of a failed despot, rewarder of fraud witness tampering tax eva- sion influence peddling conspiracy pimping assault & murder, but most all, loyalty, who in humorless protest overturned exactly zero election results, dreaming nightly of electoral coups, returning again & again to the concrete mirage of fake ballots cast & recast by millions of dead Communist immi- grants & calling for the madman doom of a new election to be held under martial law, Keystone State’s, Arizona’s and Wisconsin’s voting laws bickered & parsed by those with an eye on 2024, rocking the base, tipping the scales, and sharpening the flagpoles of foaming patriots, dreaming of a night- mare of lynched bodies tried & convicted by mob rule, who fucked up fucked with and fucked their way up the White House ladder, drunk, packing & unelectable, grabbing the ill-timed notebook and grabbing ass and grabbing the disagreeable placard, a bully with opportunistic conscience, peddling influence and sound bites with no discernable obligation to the truth, america, while you are not safe i am not safe, and now masked & armed you stand before me unrecognizable in your anger fear need & utter denial – and who therefore left their paying friends adrift on the red carpets of Palm Beach, obsessed with overturning the tables of democracy & betrayed even by their own Judas VP and their former senate majority enabler, who dreamt of incoherent revolution, briefly suspending time and storming the slightly opened gates, enabled by elected insurrectionists and feeling loved & special by their savior of the twisted cross, coming in peace & bullet-proof vests while gunning for traitors & satanic opposition & indulging in the celebratory tantrum dance of the Angry White Man to smash the test tubes of this Our Great Experiment, with jack- boot echoes in once-hallowed halls springing from dogwhistle call-to-arms, shameless heavy-duty zip ties seeking someone they did not vote for & leaving behind the viral rumor of roasted nuts the grifter and his marks, over 74 million strong, laying down a reality show for the ages, a ratings coup for the eyeball farmers and a little death for our collective humanity, then shrinking before our very eyes in the hot piss glow of a spotlight cursed & craved, whispering ghost strains of a farewell song forever noteless unsacred catalyst for so much of America’s naked suffering & perfect flawed vessel for entire universes where heart does not matter with the absolute heart of a once-great nation butchered on the altar of their own quenchless ego, may they live on in irrelevance for a thousand years. II What twisted craftsman of bone and blood could revel in the sacrifice of his own creation gutted upon the blasphemous altar of self-reverence? Nebro! Demiurge! Fool! Rebel! Expelled from the Fullness to bask in mirrored adulation! Depriving his children of The Ultimate Spark! Dousing Holy Thirst with the brackish water of forgetfulness! Nebro! Nebro! Pretender to Greatness Nebro! Nebro the arrogant! Vengeful Nebro! Nebro the flawed creator of this flawed world! Nebro the pridefully ignorant! Nebro the lion-headed snake- child of Chaos, Nebro the corrupted false-father! Nebro whose unflinching demand for loyalty is itself a betrayal! Nebro the deceiving redeemer! Nebro who would wall-in the Infinite! Nebro whose blood flows without heart pumping! Nebro whose fingers lack the finishing touch! Nebro who’s puffed chest is always hollow! Nebro with willfully deaf ears to the harmony that resonates fully without mass! Nebro who is blind to universes beyond the breath of his atmosphere! Nebro whose scaled forgeries demand endless devotion! Nebro who dreams of the vengeance before the betrayal! Nebro the sower of empty seeds! Nebro the reaper of a barren garden! Nebro whose love is bestowed with conditions! Nebro whose spirit never becomes fully manifest! Nebro whose wealth reeks of Ponzi alchemy! Nebro whose fate is but humbling reabsorbtion into the unseen! Nebro whose name is, sadly, not unpronounceable! Nebro who in loneliness begat creation! Nebro and his ToyBox of wonders! Nebro the mere reflection! Nebro mated with his own madness! Cast away and visionless Nebro! Nebro who entered the garden uninvited! Nebro the luminous dark shadow obscuring consciousness! Nebro the abandoned child jealous father! Living in the dream of Nebro! Longing for the self-generating light! Nebro! Nebro! corrupted offerings! warped cathedrals! distorted hymns! suppressed gospels! demonic minions! spectral acolytes! the maker and the made! devout mockeries! holy forgeries! They stared in awe at the at the skewed perfection of Nebro! matter, form, density, time! the lush field of corporeal distraction! cloaking the divine infinite which is everywhere about us! Surviving! attracting! acquiring! controlling! do-ing be-ing! the whole experience-ing of exist-ing! Dreams! aspirations! yearnings! gnawing hungers! all side- effects of his unholy counterfeit separation! Break through! beyond the canopy! beyond the lack! beyond the given perception! immunity from the fire! vision and resurrection! from banishment to liberation to transcendence! Fuck Nebro and his brimstone tantrums! the true god is no cannibal! Fly away now, fly away! We’ve seen enough! barricaded democracy! freedom behind fences! They slipped out the back! They headed south for the winter! to emptiness! fired! this bitter pill! this malignant footnote! into the past! III George Floyd! I’m with you in Minneapolis where for eight minutes and 46 seconds, we cannot breathe I’m with you in Brunswick where, for jogging while Black, we get hunted down for sport by a box of crackers I’m with you in Buffalo where we are told that we tripped and fell, while blood flows freely from our head and the RoboCops go marching marching on I’m with you at a Taco Bell Drive-Thru in Vallejo where had we known it was our Last Supper we would have fallen asleep at a Burger King I’m with you in Louisville where we are shot eight times on a botched warrant, but hey – accidents will happen I’m with you in Oakland where we are boogaloo ambushed as uniformed casualties of the race war, while our Top Cop still thinks the real enemy is the anti-Fascists I’m with you in Dayton because even insane people are guaranteed their Second Amendment rights I’m with you on the shores of the Rio Grande face down next to our beautiful baby girl I’m with you in El Paso where by the time we realize those were not firecrackers, it is too late I’m with you in Istanbul a mere journalist, dismembered I’m with you in San Juan where we’re mopping up what’s left of our lives with a single sacred roll of the quicker picker upper I’m with you in Las Vegas where lead rains down upon Mandalay Bay and we laugh like crisis actors waiting for a check from George Soros I’m with you in Charlottesville where careening metal makes us fly like bowling pins, and where he pleads guilty, but not nearly guilty enough I’m with you in San Antonio where we ride in on eternity’s darkness, taking our last breath together in search of a better life I’m with you on the Portland MAX bleeding out for the hijabs of total strangers I’m with you in Roger Ailes’ office vomiting into his wastepaper basket I’m with you in Berkeley watching some good cops as they watch us getting clubbed by some good people I’m with you in Kenosha where for seven times our three young children get to watch us getting shot in the back I’m with you in Afghanistan where the Mother of all Bombs killed no civilians except us I’m with you in New York City where our last thoughts came in a ventilator crying for our mothers along with only 400,000 others I'm with you in Michigan where we almost got kidnapped by patriots for daring to close the gymnasiums I’m with you in Columbus where our keys are in the door and we are on the floor with blood with sandwiches with three shots to the back And I’m with you in Columbus again I’m with you in Our Nation's Capitol, dying in service to an extinguishing ideal I’m with you in every burned-out Church & Synagogue, & every shot-up school, house party & dance hall, every emergency room, meat locker & morgue, where in my dreams, through smoke & bullet holes, through my final longing for your voice your touch your very smell, you wipe away my tears and convince me that someday every- thing is gonna be all right FOOTNOTE TO (my)HOWL Wholly Holey! Wholly Holey Whole Hole! Holy Hole! Holy! Holy Hole! Wholly Holy Holey Hole! The planet is holey! The spirit is holey! Black skin is holey! White skin is holey! Brown skin is holey! Red skin is holey! Yellow skin is holey! Green skin is holey! Blue skin is holey! All skin is holey! No skin is holey! Everything is wholly holey! everybody’s wholly holey! in every heart everywhere, there are holy, holy holes! an eternity in four years! a Sucker born every sacred minute! The anarchist’s as holey as the storm trooper! the politician’s as holey as the soulless unnamed PACs are holey! The aching thumbs are holey the latent live-streams are holey the thirsty ears are holey the on-line tip jars are holey! Holey Sally Yates! Holey Preet Bharara Holey Christine Blasey Ford! Holey Walter Schaub Jr! Holey Marie Yovanovitch! Holey Lieutenant Colonel Alexander Vindman! Holey Dr. Anthony Fauci! Holey Coach Aaron Feis! Holey the unknown casualties of politics after midnight and off the clock! Holey the awesome and horrible singular reality! Holey whistleblower Edward Snowden! Holey journalist Julian Assange! Holey patriot Chelsea Manning! Holey the latent stutterstep jamnation! Holy the fucking Zoom Apocalypse! Holy the distanced drummers as they groove in 13/8 bongos & forgiveness & legal marijuana! Holey the solitudes of the ICU and the meatlocker morgues! Holey the agony of the 6-feet untouchables! Holey the stinking masks and streets of discarded rubber gloves! Holey the deepstate multitudes! Holey the vast flocks of libtards and sheeple! Holey the flaming passions of low-information zealotry! Who digs The Confederacy IS The Confederacy! Holey Tulsa Holey Phoenix Holey Tampa Holey Winston & Salem Holey Henderson Holey Johnstown Holey Des Moines Holey Greenville Holey Macon Holey Reno Holey Las Vegas Holey Pensacola Holey Allentown Holey Omaha Holey Kenosha Holey Bullhead City! Holey time holey life holey family holey relationship holey cohort holey precious routine and schedule holey expectations holey the crumbling kingdom of Nebro! Holey the heart holey the mind holey the feelings holy intuition holey knowledge beyond training holey spontaneous knowing holey the wholly holy self and the wholly holy holey vision and holey the incomprehensible void! Holey the eternal extra brilliant flame of our wholly holy holy birthright to be whole!